elizavetamai

so many emmotions in my head...

2008-10-27T21:15:56Z

I am still fighting with the idea of going or staying here in Chicago, I really really wanted to leave at one point last week. Then by the end of the week I just figured that I would stay here until I got more caught up with stuff. I don't know if I would be able to find that good of a job over there anyway. Then on Friday night I had two messages on my house phone from places that I had applied to. I called them back today but was only able to get ahold of one of the people but I do have a phone interview set up for tomorrow 9a.m. Also Saturday Jose started calling me again and kept on calling me and calling me. He is beong really persistant and I am trying to be cold. It's hard though. Then I got what I needed last night that other person called me and we talked for over 2 hours about nothing and everything. He keeps landing in my path at the right times. I think that it's all a plan to keep me away from Jose. God works in mysterious ways.

Surprise!!!

2008-10-24T17:43:59Z

So yeah I come into work today and find the rummors to be true. National City has been sold!!!! Yeah for those of you that don't know, that's where I work. It has been sold to PNC which is some sort of Pittsburg based company. I am glad that it's not a Chicago bank though.

elizavetamai @ 2008-10-21T18:30:00

2008-10-23T23:32:57Z

These past couple weeks have had so many ups and downs. There is Jose, whom I loved and had to let go because I know my life would be better without him and there is the fact that he is starting to get desperate calling me and texting me all day. He is wanting to see me, telling me he loves me and that his life isn't worth living without me in it. But I can't go back things aren't going to change I know it. The thing is yeah it kills me because I loved him so much I gave him my heart and worst of all my money. He said he wants to take care of us, but he hasn't done that in six years, I have been doing it all along by myself and getting myself farther and farther down.

Life is Changing...

2008-10-14T06:03:12Z

It's been a really long time since I have even logged on here. I guess I didn't have much to say or was really busy with stuff. A long 6 years it has been with me and Jose. I loved him with everything that I had and tried and tried, things didn't change besides being further into debt. I finally came to the decision that it was best to leave him, and I am really trying my best to stick to it this time. I really am done, I am starting to feel the weight lift off of my shoulders and see life in a different way.
My sister got married yesterday!!! Congrats to her. She should be in Austrailia today hopefully... she was going there for her honeymoon.
So now my concerns are resting on the rest of MY life and I don't want to be held back. I would like to find some one that I can be with forever but I want it to be right this time. It's not that I am in a rush or anything at this point. I just have to think a lot.

...

2007-12-01T20:21:26Z

So yeah, I used to be so addicted to this site, I would read all about the bird communities. Now I just don't have time or make time or don't even think about it. I haven't been spending much time with my poor birdies since I got the puppy at the end of april, of course I still feed them and stuff. They all can be a lot of work. I have been working over 40 hours some of the time lately as well. Yeah so my life is busy but still kind of boring.

nothing....

2007-07-10T22:42:57Z

Right now I am at work. It's raining like crazy outside. So when that happens, everything gets empty, they don't want to be out in the rain. I don't know why I am posting on here, I guess that I am just bored or something, in a way. I just called Jose, I talked to him for a minute and he told me that he had another call and then silence, then there was a little click of when he hung up the phone after the other call. Whatever. I am getting tired of it, I really am. I love him a whole lot that's why I am still with him, I was hoping that one day he'd grow up and we'd get married, but from the looks of things now that's not going to happen, at least not anytime soon.
On Sunday I went to the lake with the girls that I used to babysit for, their mother, grandmother and their aunt. It was really nice, despite the heat I really enjoyed myself. I need to get out more and do something with my life, rather than sit at home hoping that Jose will call and want to do something or even worse just show up when I am about to go somewhere else.
I know I know everyone has told me, just leave him already, but it's hard. We just made five years together, that's a big chunk of my life.

it's been so long...

2007-05-30T04:10:29Z

i haven't posted on here forever. yes I am stil alive though. I am still working at the bank. I got a new puppy a little over a month ago for my birthday after one of my kitties died a few days before that. my puppy is sooo cute, but she is a little pain, lol.. Anyways maybe I will post again soon, I am going to bed probably.
laterz

elizavetamai @ 2006-09-23T16:29:00

2006-09-23T21:40:03Z

Thursday night I went out with my friend Yvonne and her daughter who is almost 2 to Shooters. For those of you that don't know what that is, it's this one restaurant that has a buffet. Last night I went to a movie with Jose and a couple of his friends. I got a call the other night from Ali, he was this one guy that I used to like in Minnesota, who is now in Arizona, I really don't like to talk to him too much, because all he wants to do is try to come and visit him, he tells me that he misses me and wants to be with me, marry me, etc etc. I really don't have feelings for him anymore so it makes the few conversations that I do ever have with him really weird. Then when I told Jose that I talked to him it made him mad, I can kind of understand but at the same time it's not like I am really going to run off to Arizona with the guy. I would say we are a safe distance apart. Today I got up and went to work, oooh how thrilling, it is about the same as every Sat morning, I end up staying out late Friday night and then being totally tired by the time I have to get up. I am back to 20 hours now, I thought that I would get a lot done around the house and stuff, but didn't because I was sick most of the week, it's funny how things (don't) work out. Now I am going to take a shower and maybe meet up with my sister and go maybe to wal-mart or something.
Oh yeah tomorrow I am going to go to Union Grove Wisconsin to the track if it's not raining, and race my car.

so I have given in to myspace...

2006-09-21T16:23:59Z

After a long time I finally succombed to myspace a few months ago. The weird thing is I was looking up people on there last night and found out that there are a few of my friends from grammar school on there that I haven't talked to in years, so I sent them an invite. Though I don't do any blog writing on there, I do that all here. None of those crazy people need to know my business anyway. The last couple of days I have been sick, that is no fun, I was off Tuesday, and sick, then worked yesterday morning and still sick, then off again today and still sick, that is not fair, I finally got a couple of days off of work and then I have to feel terrible.
Well in the good light of things, I found out yesterday that my aunt will probably be out of the building by the end of the month, i feel for her in a way, but then again if she can't manage to pay a measily $250 a month rent, she needs to get a dose of reality. Then the good part about it anyway is that I am supposedly going to get her apt.
Well, I think that I am going to go and take some more nyquil, and try to get some more rest.

Dear Diary

2006-08-28T01:35:03Z

Again life has changed so much, but at the same time really hasn't changed that much. I am tying to deal with all the things that life throws at me. I finally got a new job about 3 months ago. Yeah, no more pizza hut for now. I am working at National City bank. It is so much better there for now. I have to take care of customers and so forth. Though I don't have to run around all day and make sure that the dough isn't over proofing, and that the pizzas aren't burning, and that the driver took the right delivery. I actually can work at a decent pace in a very much better enviorment. My boyfriend, he also has a new job, for a couple of months now. I hope that it works out for him.

elizavetamai @ 2006-06-13T11:43:00

2006-06-13T16:55:18Z

Okay so I haven't been on too much and I really haven't written too much lately, so here I go. I applied for a new job online towards the end of April at a bank. Guess what I got it. I started my two week book training May 15th. May 1st was my b'day which basically came and went like every year, but I had a good time. Now I have been in the branch for a couple of weeks. I am catching on well, things are fairly easy, I just need to get used to all of it. My boyfriend, yes I am still with him, won tickets to the Stained concert on the radio, I think that it was like May 17th. I really enjoyed it, and that's when I fell in love with the band HURT. They are really good, only if you like that type of music. So I ended up joining myspace just to find out more about them. I generally had a negative attitude about myspace because all the creeps out there seem to be on it. Though I actually have been having a good time, because I have been making friends with all kinds of cool new bands. Last night I made my friend Kristy go to Wise Fools Pub with me to see AutoVaughn play, they are from Nashville Tennesee, and she really enjoyed it. I decided that I need to get out more, and since they had sent me an invite, I went. It was actually a lot better than I expected, I even bought their CD at the end and had the band sign it. *grin* They are really cool. Kristy told that she had a really good time and would like to do that stuff more often, and I told her so would I. Thanks to myspace I have been getting all sorts of invites, though some of them aren't that great, I think it would be fun to go to a few. Well I will leave you with all that for now. Until later. I feel so much more free without pizza hut I can actually have a life for the first time.

Same ole stuff...

2006-03-12T19:13:18Z

Well, I don't have an awful lot of time since I have to go to work in a little while. I closed, wednesday, opened thursday, closed friday (which was a stressful day), and then closed last night, but since my boss is so stressed out she took of this Fri, Sat, and Sunday. Yesterday some one from another restaurant opened, but he had to go to work at his Pizza Hut so I had to come in at 1. I may as well have just opened myself, since they only had been open for 2 hours and when I got there nothing was done. Not to mention the guy had an extra person there to help and they were only on ticket #11. Then I get to close again today which isn't as bad but I have to be there 2 hours earlier than my schedule again. For the first time this year it's become a little nicer outside and I have to spend the whole day stressed out at work. Well, on the bright side of things, I heard that I am supposed to be getting promoted soon and may be going to another Pizza Hut, at this point I don't care. That's fine, I love most of my crew and that store is doing pretty well but there are big issues with the management. I want to get a promotion so that I can pay off my bills and move out. Although I still owe my mom plenty of money especially since when my car got stolen she lent me the money to get a new one. I don't like being in this situation. I know I could go on but I really have to get going.

Too much...

2006-02-18T19:49:28Z

I think that I have been on this computer way too much lately, lol. I spent yesterday, my day off by the computer most of the day. Then I get up today and do the same thing, though I do have to work tonight. I tried taking a couple of pictures of myself last night, a couple came out OK and I posted them on flickr. Though I really do hate pics of myself. Oh well, being on the computer is cheaper than going out and spending money. Last night was another really cold night, it was supposedly going to get below 0. I don't reallly know if it did for sure or not but when I looked at my atomic clock around 4 in the morning it said that it was 5 degrees outside. I know I am probably boring you to death by now, so I will let you go.

elizavetamai @ 2006-02-18T00:53:00

2006-02-18T06:58:51Z

So do you ever have those days that you get up and do nothing? Well, not totally nothing, but yeah it's your day off and you never leave the house? Of course I took care of my babies (pets for those who don't know) and I spent a lot of time on the computer. Yeah I slept a couple extra hours, I needed it, but where did the day go? I think I let all of it go by while I sat in front of my computer playing with livejournal, lol. Yes, tomorrows another day, but that is another day that I have to work. Well actually it's almost 1 a.m. so yeah I have to work later today. Time slips through our fingers, it's seems to go by faster and faster with age. It's scarey sometimes, I feel sometime what about the other acomplishments I wanted out of life and now my time is running so short. How am I going to feel when I am 40 if time is running faster and faster now?

Morning

2006-02-17T20:07:36Z

Don't you love the days that you WAKE UP with a headache? That is how my day started off.. Or better yet yesterday morning some one calls my house at about 8:15 a.m. and wakes me up after I went to bed around 4:30a.m. and then I didn't go back to sleep since I got up was on the computer for a while, and figured I didn't want to sleep through my whole day off so I stayed up.. Yeah until about 3 in the morning, I went out to Gary Indiana to visit a friend, actually my old boss, lol. Anyway, then when I was leaving my doors were frozen shut, so I had to dip my key in hot water and move it around a little to get it to open. Then I stopped for gas mind you it was around 1:45 in the morning, but gas is like 20 or 30 cents cheaper out there so I figured it was worth it since I would have had to buy some today after coming all the way back. But while pumping the gas I almost froze my fingers off.. it was sooo cold, the day yesterday started out dark and rainy then slushy, then lots and lots of rain, i got to drive in some of it taking my friends daughter to the public aide office and then later it just got COLD!!!!! Okay so I got home and layed down almost right away, I was soo tired, and went to sleep. This morning I wake up, it's too hot and stuffy in my room, my atomic clock with the thermometer reads 79 degrees, but this is not a new thing, this is every morning. So I crack the window open for a little while and let it get somewhat cooler in the room, but I am always worried about it being too cold or drafty because of my birds and my fish tanks, I have a newer betta tank not to far from the window with no heater so I have to be careful, I am going to have to move it soon though, well once it gets a little warmer and start opening the window more, I don't want him to get cold. Anyway, I woke up to the annoying screech of Solie. I love her very much, but she can be annoying. She starts in as soon as she sees me roll over, she usually isn't too bad though, because I try to ignore her when she yells, a lot of mornings she makes cute noises, those may get her more attention. =) Maybe I should go and cook for my birdies? Beak apetite or something it is called, it has different things like seeds and pasta and stuff... Well thats enough about my me for now.

elizavetamai @ 2006-02-16T10:10:00

2006-02-16T16:14:46Z

hi yeah I am trying to get this to work...

Awake again.

2006-02-09T15:02:24Z

I woke up this morning around 7am after getting out of work last night and talking to my sister for a while. After hanging up with her I made spagetti, lol.. I didn't really like it too much though, but I really am not a big eater of spagetti anyway. I am off today. I am still waiting for these people to call me for a second interview. I am supposed to call sometime today if they don't. So anyway, I got up this morning and changed my birds' water, fed my fish, and watched all of them for a while, then got on the computer and looked at a few things like my pics of my babies etc, and then LiveJournal, lol. Well maybe I will try to take a nap because I want to enjoy some of my day and not sleep through the middle of it.

elizavetamai @ 2006-02-08T12:19:00

2006-02-08T18:20:15Z

well, I went to the interview, it only lasted about 5 min. But they are going to call me tonight and set up a time for a second interview with another manager. Hopefully it goes well. *crosses fingers*

hi

2006-02-08T13:42:29Z

I know I should still be sleeping, I have been up since around 6 this morning. And I did go to bed pretty late after working last night etc. Well anyway I have a job interview at the Rainforest Cafe this morning at 10:30 so that is why I can't sleep. Well anyways, wish me luck. I think this is what I really need a change of pace somewhat, after 6 years at Pizza Hut and still not getting anywhere. Wish me luck.

Upgrade

2006-02-03T20:42:51Z

Hey guess what? I know that linnapaw will be impressed, I upgraded to a paid account of LJ. Now I just need to figure out what I can do with it right? Well right now I have hair dye sitting in my hair to it's probably the best time to play with it. lol.

elizavetamai @ 2006-02-03T12:52:00

2006-02-03T18:55:13Z

I am trying to figure out how to post a picture from flickr. < http://www.flickr.com/photos/34613832@N00/93989820/in/set-72057594057380651/>

Flickr

2006-02-02T05:52:47Z

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

What is this world coming to???

2006-01-15T08:42:23Z

Okay, well i got home from work a little while ago to find that my pretty purple and white betta died. Poor thing, I've been more attached to my bettas recently that some of the other fish. I only had him about a week or so. I had gotten another one a couple of months ago, that I still have, and bought a female one yesterday. But the males have to be separate, well I only have one now anyways. =( Anyways, yesterday, or the day before if you want to get technical I recieved the weirdest phone call, this guy from E R Soulutions called and asked for me. I was the one that answered so I was like I am Elizabeth. He said that he was calling in reguards to my Cingular account, I was like what, at first I didn't even understand what he was saying, or what he was talking about. When he said Cingular I thought of the allergy asthma medication I took for a while Singular. Anyway, he was like Cingular. I told him I don't have Cingular. He asked me if I ever had Cingular and I told him no. He went on to explain that he was calling from a collection agency and told me that there was an unpaid debt to Cingular for $6800. He told me my social security number and even had my drivers license # on file and according to his records had talked to me a couple of months ago. He gave me the address and phone # that were in his system for where the bills were sent and so forth. So I went to a Cingular dealer and asked them what was needed to open an account, and they told me just a drivers license. I went on to tell them why I had asked this question, the girl (who was really nice) got me on the phone with the fraud department. I had done a reverse look up with the phone # that they gave me and it was some lady on the south side. While on the phone with the fraud department they said that this person opened the account July 25th 2005 with 5 lines and he couldn't believe how much the bill was. He said that some lady had been calling up there saying they were me, so she must have stalled them from turning it off somehow. Then I gave him the lady's name that came up and it said she had tried to open an account with them twice but she was declined. That means though that they have all of her personal information as well... I am waiting for the paper to come in the mail stating that the account was deemed fraudulant and then I have to go and make a police report and well as find out if there is anything else linked to my ss# that shouldn't be. The thing that is crazy though I actually think that it wasn't through the internet, I think that it has something to do with the people who stole my car almost 2 years ago. My purse was in there as well as all my identification and so forth. So that was my exciting day. Oh yeah and before I went to work today I was looking at some stuff on-line and found that one of our delivery drivers is a registered sex offender. I think that he's losing his job, I told my boss, she told hers and she had to suspend him today, and he don't even know why yet. Life is crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today...

2006-01-13T19:47:04Z

Well, my sister has been telling me that I haven't written in a while, I guess that's true. It's been about 2 months. I still read in a couple of my communities every day, I may make comments here and there, but haven't posted in a while. Today I am off of work after working and OC (open-close) yesterday, and Tuesday, and I actually did one last Friday too. One of the managers took her vacation and had that stomach surgery and thought that she would be back in 2 weeks, now she is saying at least this month. Okay for those of you who don't know, I did get transferred to another Pizza Hut a couple of months ago. That's a whole other long story that I don't feel like rehashing right now. So anyway, my birdies are doing fine. Yeah, I confess there are like 21 in my room right now. 5 are supposed to go to this one lady that I worked with, but I am waiting for her to get the cage. Grr, I am wondering if that will ever happen, I love my babies, but I don't need five extra birds with the # I have already. I bought my sister (linnapaw) a headset with a microphone the other night(now I will be able to call her computer through yahoo messenger), so I will have to send it to her soon as well as the 1st season to Leave it to Beaver. I am getting a camera (a really nice one at that) for Christmas, I know Christmas has passed, but it's been ordered. I am getting anxious about getting it already, I want to take pictures of my pets, especially my birdies. So I will have to post some as soon as it gets here, it's been a little over a week, they said generally 10-15 business days is normal, that seems like a long time though. Well I have to go and do some stuff now, but I will post later.

tired...

2005-11-12T09:52:50Z

I haven't really written, but I come on almost everyday and read things in my parrotlovers community. I finally got my cichlid tank set up yesterday, well I had some in a tank already, but they went from a ten gallon, to a 29 gallon, and now moved into my 55 gallon, since the other fish that I had in there eventually died. I have had it empty for a couple weeks. I really haven't had time to deal with it. Each time I put them into a bigger tank I buy a few more, those fish really learn to be territorial and once they are settled in there is not really any use adding more because they will kill the new fishies sometimes. I know from experience. Poor fishy hides, and eventually starves to death in the weeds because the mean big fishies try to attack them.. I just joined a new community that is a fish community lol. It's cool so far, not as cool as the parrot one though. My babies are all doing good, at this point I have 19 birds in my room. My 3 baby lovebirds are spoken for though the other 16 I am keeping. The problem now is I may have to keep the babies a little longer than expected because it seems the mommy is plucking the babies backs. I know I should've pulled them out and hand-fed them but I really can't with my stupid work schedule, there is just no way. Then there are all my problems with work... well to sum it up for you I will put it this way, my boss is a jerk. He is always telling me that I am not doing my job right and that I should have been on my last write up and so forth. Well, finally I have had it, I talked to his boss on Thursday, my day off. I told him about some of the issues that we have been facing in the restaurant. He actually told me that he wanted to talk to me anyway about my promotion and so forth. He said that a previous manager of mine had asked for me to work with her again and he is thinking about transferring me over there. I told him that I was willing to do it, I would much rather work with some one that thinks that I do a great job vs. some one that tells me that I should have been fired for stupid stuff. I am sick of working 6 nights a week, not even seeing my friends anymore or anything just so I can be told that I am not doing my job, when I feel like I am doing way too much, exceeding my expectations. Sure I am not perfect and there is stuff that I need to work on but I do a lot and if I am not appreciated for it, then it's not worth it.. They don't pay me enough to go through all this stress. I feel like I have no time to myself, with most of the time one day off a week all I want to do is sleep that day anyway and nothing gets done. I feel like I am neglecting my fish and my poor birdies, and I care more about them than pizza hut. Speaking of which I better go check on their food and water and get some sleep, because it's back to work tomorrow. eww eww eww. .